Sisters by Heart

Soul-sister: "Someone who fully understands you. Like a soulmate, but not someone you want to marry and make babies with. The sister of your soul." -Urban Dictionary

Sister-friend: a friend who is like a sister

I have lost or released a friend or two, but to lose a person who has a place in your heart hurts like a heartbreak. I’m almost ashamed to say I’ve lost someone so close to me that part of me feels like it broke upon their exit. It’s like the same part of me I found is missing the piece that brought it out. I think the hardest thing to do is to acknowledge it when people ask. It’s just knowing my friend I know she’s better than ever! She’s always strong, powerful, free, and mighty so whenever someone asks… I know me saying she’s doing good is simply a solid truth and probably an understatement. I just can’t bring myself to tell anyone that we’ve released our friendship, because I could never explain why. I don’t want to remember it. I didn’t imagine experiencing my 30s would be without the presence of my sister. I still don’t think I could’ve prepared myself for that, because I always felt like we had each other. The more vocal side of me, the crazier version of me, a version of the nurturer inside me , and a vibe I'll never forget. I miss my girl! Yet knowing her she’s firm in her decision I wouldn’t be able to sway her any other, and if it was someone else she’d want me to stand firm on not going back or chasing anyone’s companionship. So even in going our separate ways she’s still teaching me and that makes me proud to have shared space and have broke bread with my sister. It’s just hard losing and grieving the loss of a friend, sister, a soul friend.

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