Exercise and the Mind

How is it that we know what we need to be successful or make great change, but we are stuck in fear. I am in a space in my life that’s pushing me into becoming a better version of myself. Yet, every time I block myself. I’m starting to think I’m scared of my own potential or growth. Scared to be in the spotlight, but that’s such a disservice. I was once 215 pounds and I am officially removed from the ”200 Club”, but I allow other’s expectations of my growth to stop me. I have been making progress and someone still takes their time to try to make my experience theirs and it’s not. I honestly know how to lose the weight, but I am mentally blocked. My body will do so much before my mind is over it. My weightloss journey has been so mental that no matter how much someone tries to push me if I don’t want it or put in the mental work I’ll be back where I started. I can be getting results MY WAY then there’s someone saying something and I’m in my head again. Afraid that I’m not doing right by me and the direction I chose is wrong. When that’s not true… I know for a fact putting myself on a caloric deficit works for me, HIIT over traditional cardio works for me, that no weights at this time since my goal is to rebuild my muscles and drop weight(also I still have an injury that didn’t receive full treatment) and I know I’m an Endomorph. It’s like I put in all that work to learn me just to let someone else tell me I’m doing me wrong when i was getting more results alone. I think I’m secretly looking for validation for my growth when my body shows me that through the beautiful changes. It’s just I remember being that girl!! Being the girl that didn’t like running, but when I did I got it done, having abs, comfortable in my body and skin, and just happy to be healthy. Now it’s like my health is a reflection of how effective someone else can assist me or how someone else wants to see me, and that’s not fair to me. It’s not fair to the knowledge Ive gained or the work I’ve done. I choose today to do whats best for me… Saying no, showing up for myself, being consistent to my program, doing my two a days, and just honoring myself by making these changes. It’s time. It’s really time. I’m turning 27 and the best gift I can give myself is growth and good change ❤️